I'm not writing these words to you to make you remember me, or to know that I loved you all, and used to do so….. But I'm writing this to you because I felt that I want to say something to you …. Something that we must understand and give all ears….. It's not about me .. it's not about you … it's about a person just like me lived among us …. I know you may close your eyes at this moment and attempt to find the edge of this message,… I know you have no time to read what I am about to tell you … look, I cannot enforce you to read it … I cannot enforce you to believe it … you have the right to believe it or to reject it … yet I will say it…
I've been trying for a very long time to stand in a life that may seem like that life which can be found in stories and movies,…. That kind of life in which a person can love the people who love him… and cry for the pains of the others, that life which makes the person laugh and cry.. moan and sing .. damaged with happiness
]I tried to get myself out of that life of money and envy and plots… I tried to love and I loved … I tried to smile and I smiled .. I tried to cry and I cried … I tried to be that human who is human with all what this word carries. …..
Do you know what I realized there????
I've witnessed people hate each other, laughing at the poor… stepping on the emotive .. saying lies to befriend…
I just wanted some people to love me because I am myself… to love me because I am trying to confirm their love inside of me….
Look… I am writing this to you and I am sure that some of you if not many will laugh at me and say what they are used to say… that …. I am a poor person who thinks that he can live in the heaven while his feet are deep in the hell. I know they will say that this is just crazy …. People have forgotten this, since our prophet died.. it doesn't bring any money or cash ……….. Yes, that's exactly what I am talking about … life of love and innocence became an illusion, and it's impossible to even be thought about. Nowadays, the person who loves and evokes his emotions to feel the feelings of the others is a poor and stupid person….. why? Cuz there is no more real hearts that can feel or love…. Hearts became desires
Classmates, I tried to take myself away of this life that many of us live… life which became as commerce.. if you give you have to take more , or it's better not to give at all. I'm not telling you that just to think about me in a bad or a good manner.. or think that I am changed… But really I don't have any more chances to march away of this life.. I have sold my chances to the air. Yet I believe that I have to create the chances for myself and not to give up to the devil. I am still remembering what the old man has said "a man can be destroyed but not defeated"…
]For that classmates, understand that "life is not how to live, or by what. It's why do you live, and for what you must live. Long life doesn't mean living on the earth for hundreds of years, but it's living in the hearts and the minds of people forever. And the real happiness is to draw the smile on the sad people lips."
Thank you for reading if you've read ….
Your lover/ Bassam al.Mardahi
عدل سابقا من قبل (B) almardahi في 27/11/2008, 1:04 am عدل 3 مرات